Posted in Detox, Experiences, Experiments, Food, Learnings, Uncategorized


This week we are detoxing in the Eat Clean workshop. This means we are going caffeine free, dairy free, sugar free, gluten free, and refined carb free this week. Of course, absolutely no processed food. It’s only for five days, so that thought is helping give me give my 100% to the program.

Workout for the day included 2 miles of walk/jog and some strength training. Today’s menu was:  

Breakfast – one big pesarat dosai with peanuts chutney

Morning snack – one tablespoon of chia seeds with 12 oz of water

Lunch – 16 oz of green smoothie – spinach, kale, mango, cucumber, berries blended with ginger, turmeric, salt, pepper, machur and water. Also, threw in a few almonds.

Snack – brown chickpeas with onion and tomato, one tablespoon of apple cider vinegar in 8 oz of water, decaf green tea

Dinner – hearty brown rice, moong dhal kichidi

What were my learnings? Chia seeds, flax seeds and walnuts are the only source of omega for vegetarians. Apple Cider Vinegar is a miracle drink that does wonders to your digestive system. Vegetables can be fermented and are excellent sources of probiotic. This quote had me nodding away – “What does not challenge you will not change you”

How did I feel – green smoothie kept me full only for a couple of hours. Glad I had a bigger snack. Did not crave for any particular food but have been having mild headache since tea time, which is fully expected.

Posted in Detox, Experiences, Experiments, Food, Health and fitness, Uncategorized

Eat Clean workshop

I have signed up for Eat Clean workshop led by the same nutritionist that organized the detox and smoothie challenge last year. I really like her approach and find it holistic and sustainable. The workshop is for a month with another month to practice our learnings from this month. The goal is to eat simple and clean. In other words, avoid processed food. Portion control is recommended if you want to shed some pounds.

Here are some habits I have picked so far or would like to pick going forward.

  • Start the day with lukewarm lime water
  • Get into the habit of eating a bowl of salad with lunch and dinner. She recommends 50-50 rule, that is 50% should be raw veggies and 50% should be cooked carb and protein
  • Think rainbow when you plan your daily menu – include food that is red, yellow/orange, purple/blue, green, white/brown, and green! Your body gets variety of nutrition meeting different dietary needs when you choose produce and dry fruits from these colors. Very manageable, just need to consciously make it a habit.
  • No refined sugar. Only one cup of tea or coffee per day. I use coconut sugar from Trader’s Joe as a sugar alternative.
  • Homemade sauces, dips, dressing and pickles – love making these…!
  • Recommended use of oil – olive oil for stir fry, sesame oil for Indian cooking, ghee/coconut for dhal and such.
  • Walk 2 miles per day

Things that I have not been able to keep up:

  • Hydration. Definitely behind on my water intake.
  • Minimize use of gadget before sleep time.

Two more weeks left in this workshop. I am behind by a week but I am glad I signed up and I truly hope this will be a lifestyle change.

Posted in Experiences, Family, Gratitude, Inspiration, Introspection, Learnings, Life, Uncategorized

A tribute

By this time last week, little did we know that my mil was living the last few hours of her life. The first of the several phone conversations for the night happened at 1:45 A.M. “Amma is not responding to CPR,” The next call said her lips had turned blue and that they are waiting for an ambulance. The next one said the ambulance arrived and they have called for a local doctor. And then, we learnt she is no more. All events unfolding within a span of 45 mins to an hour. It was very excruciating – hoping, wishing, praying, denying, and then finally accepting. We lay in our beds, too numb to feel anything, and trying to make sense out of the sudden turn of events. Can you shop for tickets? Da asked. On the other end, his sister was at the mortuary, trying to do the needful to preserve amma. My heart bled for the two of them.

Flights were booked for that night. We kept ourselves insanely busy, tying loose ends, not wanting to face or even think about amma not being here anymore. Hari who is grown up enough to have made memories with amma was visibly shaken. We were too distracted to let Ram know, but Hari took it upon himself to explain to Ram. “I felt bad for him amma. I think he should know even if he doesn’t understand” By then I had also spoken to Da’s sister who calmly explained how peacefully amma had passed away – she had her morning oats, had a hair wash, got ready for a doctor appointment, and just when she got into the car, there was a loud breath after which there was little life left.

We tried to find meaning in her death. So many things to be thankful for – we visited her in Nov. which was not so long ago. Da had visited her again last month as she fell ill with multiple health setbacks and she was recuperating remarkably from the health deterioration. Last but not least, she did not suffer, she went when the going was good, isn’t that the greatest blessing of all? As much as we were thankful for these gifts, they didn’t make us miss her any less. That’s when I realized what grief and loss is about – overwhelming  sadness, indescribable loneliness, and a sense of helplessness that envelopes you when you think of that person that you can no longer touch, listen and be engaged with.

We reached Hyderabad on Thursday morning. Amma was brought from the mortuary at 10:30 A.M. and the last rites and ceremony took place little after noon. Somehow the environment was not heavy as one would typically expect in a funeral. In fact, there was a certain lightness to it, that was so characteristic of amma when she was alive. I realized how important it is to say that one final good bye – to be physically present, to cling for one last time, to thank her for all the things that were and to ask for forgiveness for all the things that could have been.

Amma always took things in stride. She was never insecure about getting old. She took age related setbacks with grace. She didn’t need a lot to be happy. She somehow was adept at the art of savoring the little moments in life while not sweating the small stuff. She instilled the same attitude in her children, who in turn are causing a ripple effect with their families and beyond. Lucky us…!

Amma, thanks for showing us a different way of looking at life, one that is filled with lightness, grace and love for living. We salute you for this and for a life well lived. We miss you. A lot. Rest in Peace.


Posted in Little Moments, Now, Uncategorized

Now (LMT)

It’s a quiet Friday evening here. We are in bedtime mode as I write this post. Ram is thumbing through his bedtime books. Hari is meddling with his ipad. I love our setting here. All three of us are inches away from each other, nicely wrapped in our individual cosy comforters,  a single reading lamp shedding just the right amount of light. The ticking of the clock and my typing on the keyboard are the only accompanying sounds. A nice way to wind down a mind stretching, back breaking day.