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March and April reflections

I just chomped down a handful of chocolate covered dry fruits, so at the moment reflecting on my intentions and evaluating my eating habits seem futile and pointless. If the pattern is familiar and if you are rolling your eyes at this post, be assured that you are not alone. I am rolling mine too. Still, I promised that I would hold myself accountable here, can’t go back on that.

March was really a sorry state of affairs. I think it was pure lack of motivation.  I just didn’t eat right and exercise at all. The only saving grace was I was regular with my flossing and supplement intake.

In April, I had enrolled in a three-week nutrition workshop led by the nutritionist I have told you about in my earlier posts. I did really well for those three weeks in terms of eating habits. It was fascinating how much we eat for emotions than for hunger or nutrition. From sleep deprivation to boredom to rewarding to feeling overwhelmed, the mind simply loves and takes comfort in the the instant gratification that sugary unhealthy processed food provides . For those three weeks, I stayed away from sugar, processed food, caffeine, and gluten. Avoiding these foods did not give any tangible benefits but it was practice in noticing how vulnerable the mind is. I could not keep up meditation and exercising. I simply could not make the time. Last week and this weekend, I came tumbling down in terms of eating habits, thanks to my b’day celebrations.

And the saga continues. May and June are going to be anything but routine.

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Interesting questions Cee, thank you!

Do you use paper money? If so is your money organized sequentially according to denomination? Not as much because I don’t keep account of what I spend in cash. I don’t organize my currency notes sequentially, which I am very embarrassed about because I grew up with a dad who was quite the expert in money handling. My dad was a banker and I have seen him handle money meticulously. He flicks the currency notes and puts them in proper order even when he plays Monopoly. So I should know better.

Goes to show most things in life should come from within. If it doesn’t, it’s not going to stick no matter how much training you receive. Nevertheless there is value in that training because when the mind is willing to change, it knows how it’s done.

You are comfortable doing nothing? For long stretches of time? When I was just married and came here on dependent visa, my biggest worry was I would have nothing to do. I sulked until I found opportunities to volunteer and prepare for my Master’s program. I just wish I had the wisdom to know that it was just a phase and that it was a golden opportunity to soak in the new culture and take the time to know the new person in my life. New country, new culture, so many things to explore and experience. Wisdom comes in hindsight but we don’t live life in hindsight. Right now, I am up to my eyeballs so the notion of nothingness does not resonate and I am utterly incapable of it. My earlier experience has taught me not to crave for something that I do not have, but to soak in what I do have. There time will come when nothingness will be an option and I will comfortable with it but right now I will try to snatch pockets of leisure when I can.

What is your greatest strength?  For the most part, I accept myself and others for who they are and a situation for what it is. Paraphrasing a blogger friend who once quoted in her blog –  he is he, she is she, you are you and I am I. Sounds like Dr. Seuss rhyme but pause and think about it. I consider it as my greatest strength because it makes me less judgmental, more open and empathetic, and gives room for relationships and friendships to grow organically. Likewise accepting a situation for what it is helps me look at it matter-of-fact without taking too much offense. Sometimes it happens after my sight has been clouded by emotions, but if I allow myself some time and space to feel what I feel, acceptance and clarity follow.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. I very much appreciated the gorgeous weather on Sat. It was idyllic with no need to layer myself up.

Ram’s innocent comment “Amma, yesterday was Earth Day, we did not do anything. Let’s go out now and spend some time with earth.” brought a smile a mile long on my face. Tightly holding on to the innocence while it lasts!