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Fitness Diary – Day 10

What an intensive week this week has been! So much to do in so little time.  I know I have been writing half baked posts for the past two days. I am so brain fried and tired that I am barely able to keep my eyes open. I am hanging in there in this workshop by my fingernails.

Eats – good. I will skip the menu as it’s mostly the same as yesterday and the day before. I like to standardize breakfast and lunch from Mon. to Wed.  so I don’t have to spend time planning these meals.  Thurs.-Sat,  I change things around to avoid feeling stuck with the same meals.

Workout and meditation – none today. The time allocated to workout and meditation is being spent with the first child helping him with Tamil.

Hydration and sleep –  so so.

Gratitude.

  • Today, we are celebrating Krishna Jeyanthi in our house. Celebrating Krishna is akin to celebrating the veshamakara kannans of our house. Truly, enna thavam seidhanai for the blessing to parent the lovable feisty little boys.  
  • Thankful to my dad for introducing the Krishna devotional songs.
  • Thankful that we managed to squeeze in some prayer time today for the festival. 
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Fitness Diary – Day 09

Eats – good for most part of the day. Oats with berries for breakfast, quinoa salad for lunch, banana and nuts for snack, raagi dosai for dinner.

Workout – none. Meditation – none. Sleep – ok.

Gratitude:

  1. Intuition – nearly missed signing up for a kids’ activity. Out of nowhere, followed up on it and turns out the event was today. Thankful for the little voice in my head that kept nudging me to follow up.
  2. Thankful to my contractor and his crew who is very considerate of the fact that we are living here while the construction is happening.
  3. Friends show – much needed lightness after a day of running around. Thankful for Netflix!
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On reading

We were resting in the tent indulging in the leisure that a beach trip rewards you with. I looked up from my book and declared to nobody in particular, “Poor Mr. Darcy. All because he was an introvert!” My unintentional and sudden outburst elicited uncontrollable giggles from my offsprings. After the amusement settled down, the first born quizzed, “Who is Mr. Darcy”, the second born questioned, “What does an introvert mean?”  Their questions were lost on me, as I had long delved back into the world of  Lizzy, Darcy, Jane and Bingley, oblivious to my curious boys. They gave up and ran back to the waves. 

It felt so good to be lost in this world that Jane Austen had built that it was a sweet burden to pull the mind back to where the body was. What fine writing!

The reading experience was reassuring because I was beginning to wonder if my love for reading was just a figment of my imagination; something that I made up in my mind. Perhaps I liked the idea of reading more than reading itself?  I felt like an imposter when I borrowed books from the library. Finally,  I feel liberated from those self-doubts! For sure, I can say, I too love reading!

A couple of weeks back during our road trip, the conversation meandered to reading styles and habits. I told the family how I tend to take a long time to warm up to characters and story plot. That I read the first few pages very very slowly, and at some point, there is a flip of the switch and the pace picks up. Hari, who likes to read books in one sitting, said he has a different style. “I love reading the first portion of any book. It is so exciting to get introduced to all the characters and see the story unfold. It is in the middle that I slow down.” Da, who is a very fast reader, commented that for him it is the last part of any story that slows him down. And not wanting to be left out, the voracious reader of the family, our Ram, piped in, “I don’t slow down at all. I like reading the first, the second and the last part”  Atta boy! I thought to myself. Not necessarily for what he said on his reading style but that he made his opinion matter. A lot of times, may be because he is small relative to the rest of us, we overlook him on subjects that involve deeper discussion but he always stands tall,  makes his voice heard, and weighs in with his thoughts. Never ceases to surprise me. Anyway, I digress.

This discussion was a revelation to me. It made me cognizant of my reading style and helped me figure out why I have been reading less. The first few chapters requires that I stick to the book, so it can grip me.  Without understanding that piece, I have been expecting to instantly immerse myself in the story and have ended up feeling utterly disappointed.  I am not sure I got my reading mojo back but it is good to know that there is some mojo left.

What is your reading style? Do you ever suffer from a reading block? What are you reading? What is next on your list?

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The adult in the child

It’s hard to pinpoint whether it’s the age, the gender, the birth order or his personality, Hari has a protective streak in him. You can see it loud and clear when he is with his little brother, but it is beginning to shine through when he is around me as well. It’s sweet, endearing, and heartwarming.

It was one of those evenings when we had flash flood warning with thunder and lightening. As predicted, the evening was rather messy. I was returning from dance class and as soon as I came home, Hari heaved a sigh of relief, a smile spreading on his face. “Are you ok amma? I was so worried for you with all the thunder and lightening outside. I am happy you reached home safe and we are all under the same roof.”  We gave each other the tightest of hugs that night, he out of relief from seeing me safe and sound and I from getting a glimpse of the adult in my sweet lovable child.

The construction workers were working on the kitchen window, which was a few feet away from the restroom window. I was articulating my reluctance aloud “Oh boy, looks like I just have to hold it in today till the workers leave. I don’t feel comfortable using the restroom with them working right next to the window.” A few minutes later, Hari came up to me. “Amma, the shutters are already down. There was a little see through, I stuffed our hand towel there so nobody will be able to see you from outside. You don’t have to worry now amma.”  I was pleasantly taken aback by this unexpected gesture over something that I said lightly without actually meaning it. If it had come from anyone else including Da, I would have gotten all righteous and unaccepting. I am very capable of protecting myself and problem solving, you know?  I don’t need anyone to save or protect me. But with this son of mine, I see the act for what it is; a basic instinct to protect someone you love and care. And I lapped it all up.

He is growing up, inside and out. And what a privilege it is to be such an integral part of it, seeing it unravel right in front of our eyes.

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Sharing Your World

How do you like to spend a rainy day? At home, with the family, doing our own thing. That quiet presence and space in togetherness is what I would like on a rainy day.

List at least five favorite treats. (They do not have to be sugary). Theratipal, an early morning walk on a gloomy spring day, the Happier podcast, a movie with the brood at home while eating a take out, and a Jodi Picoult book.

Where’s your favorite place to take out-of-town guests? My picturesque neighborhood and the quaint town, the center park that is teeming with life when the New England weather permits. Walden pond is also one of my favorite places to take out-of-towners – proximity to nature and home, a trip that would leave your refreshed rather than fatigued from doing touristy things.

If you are trapped in an elevator, who would you want to be trapped with? My initial thought was Da. He is fairly hands and may be we will somehow fix the elevator. If not, if it is going to be my last few hours, I would rather spend it with someone who means the world to me and with whom I have had the time of my life . Then it occurred to me, poor thing, why drag the guy down with me?  So I thought I would just go solo on this one. That is , till I saw Cee’s response – be trapped with a guy who can fix the elevator. Now that’s some sensible thinking I say and I am shamelessly copying it.

Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? Grateful that it was a short and light work week. Grateful that we survived another intense week. However, I will confess that I went around as though (borrowing one of my favorite sermons of Da) the universe owes me a favor… you know walking around with that sense of entitlement. I cringe at that attitude and I am looking forward to correcting it, focusing on my efforts, giving it my all, and staying focused this week.

Have a good rest of the week. 

Thanks Cee for the questions.

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Here’s this week’s dose of Cee’s questions

For your main meal do you prefer sweet and sour, hot and spicy, spicy and sweet, bitter, salty, bland or other? I love food that have contrasting flavors. Blueberry bagel with veggie lite cream cheese, medium spicy bhel, tamarind rice with sweet pongal on the side… Medium spicy is my flavor preference. I can also eat bland food as long as I have some flavorful side to go with it.

Where do you hide junk when people come over? Hmmm… never thought of it as hiding but I guess dumping can be called as hiding, in which case it would be the bedroom closet. Although I think my approach is to use the visit as an opportunity to get some cleaning done rather than shoving them in the closet. Not a big fan of band-aid solutions.

What daily habit would you like to introduce to your life? So so many… my exercising and meditating habits have evaporated into thin air. I would like to bring them back in my life after my dance productions. I also want to get into the habit of daily reading.

If you were to perform in the circus, what would you do? Honestly, no idea! The very idea makes me squirm. 

Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? Grateful for opportunities – for me to learn dance from the finest teachers, for Hari to be able to participate in an inter-state cricket tournament. Grateful that Da took the kids to the neighboring state for the tournament so I can focus on things on my plate. Looking forward to being focused and productive this week.

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Thanks Cee for the questions.

What goal are you working on now? Your goal can be something fun or extremely serious.  Have fun with this question.

Focus, focus and focus. Working on two big projects this month – I am participating in my dance school’s 40th anniversary dance productions and we are making additions to our house. My day job is intensive as well this month.  Plus the kids are on summer break. A perfect storm in the making. I have to stay calm and focused instead of letting my mind wander hither and thither.

What is one thing you’re glad you tried but would never do again?

Going on a helicopter ride at Niagara falls. It was so noisy and I got so claustrophobic. I detested every second of it and would prefer not to indulge in such endeavours ever in my life.

Did you choose your profession or did it choose you? I chased and chased to get the job but the current role itself was not something that I chose but I am glad it happened to me. I like what I do. 

Have you ever gotten lost? Not that I can recall. But thanks to the movies I watched as a kid, I was terrified of getting lost when I was little especially when riding by the public bus outside my home town. I would never take my eyes off my family for fear of being left behind.

Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? Grateful for a weekend spent in the company of good friends who accept me and my family for who we are. Looking forward to staying focused this week.

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