Intentions, Introspection, Uncategorized

I care a whole awful lot!

Presidents come and go. What one president does, the other undoes. It’s only natural and common knowledge. Nothing wrong with that. What is wrong is when the undoing is lacking in ideologies, ethics, and is driven by personal agenda, is myopic, thoughtless and destructive in nature. Innocent lives get affected with irreparable loss just by virtue of being at the wrong place at the wrong time. 

The rose tinted glasses with which I viewed the country that I have to come love has shattered to pieces over the past couple of years.  What have we gotten ourselves into? How do we get out of it? What can I do? My head is reeling and I am not able to keep up with what’s going on. I am not able to separate the noise from the issue. I don’t know where to start. I am afraid I am getting desensitized.

This 4th of July, I remind myself of what the Lorax said, “Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It’s not.” 

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Share Your World

Taking up Cee’s questions after a long break.

If aliens landed on earth tomorrow and offered to take you home with them, would you go? (remember this is SYW, they are friendly aliens) Thanks, no thanks. I am happy where I am and with who I am. I might think twice if my family is willing to come with me.

How tall are you? Are you satisfied with your height? I am about five feet. I have always been the shortest in whatever group I belonged to but that has never bothered me. I am always amused by folks who want to look tall by wearing heels. So the answer is, I am satisfied with my height.

Do you think you could live without your smartphone (or other technology item) for 24 hours?  I might itch for it out of habit but I am not addicted to my smartphone. I can get used to life without smart phone (definitely) or technology (reluctantly). 

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. I had candid conversation with Hari’s former baseball coach, who is his well wisher. She explained to me what Hari is good at in baseball and where he needs to improve. She also told me how players get picked and the odds that Hari needs to beat to make it at higher levels. I truly appreciated the honesty and guidance. 

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Inspiration

This article about the rise of Dhivya Suryadevara is doing the rounds in FaceBook. I didn’t know her before reading this article. It especially struck a chord because she is about my age, grew up in the part of India where I grew up in, and chose my field of study. Her journey is quite remarkable and is the story of realizing the American dream. I can only imagine the amount of hard and smart work, and perseverance it would have taken for her to arrive here. Hats off to her for not only thriving but also making her mark in a relatively short span of time. I am in deep awe and respect! 

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March and April reflections

I just chomped down a handful of chocolate covered dry fruits, so at the moment reflecting on my intentions and evaluating my eating habits seem futile and pointless. If the pattern is familiar and if you are rolling your eyes at this post, be assured that you are not alone. I am rolling mine too. Still, I promised that I would hold myself accountable here, can’t go back on that.

March was really a sorry state of affairs. I think it was pure lack of motivation.  I just didn’t eat right and exercise at all. The only saving grace was I was regular with my flossing and supplement intake.

In April, I had enrolled in a three-week nutrition workshop led by the nutritionist I have told you about in my earlier posts. I did really well for those three weeks in terms of eating habits. It was fascinating how much we eat for emotions than for hunger or nutrition. From sleep deprivation to boredom to rewarding to feeling overwhelmed, the mind simply loves and takes comfort in the the instant gratification that sugary unhealthy processed food provides . For those three weeks, I stayed away from sugar, processed food, caffeine, and gluten. Avoiding these foods did not give any tangible benefits but it was practice in noticing how vulnerable the mind is. I could not keep up meditation and exercising. I simply could not make the time. Last week and this weekend, I came tumbling down in terms of eating habits, thanks to my b’day celebrations.

And the saga continues. May and June are going to be anything but routine.

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Experiences, Family, Food, Gratitude, Hari Katha, Uncategorized

Weekend updates

Just like the prior week and the week ahead, the weekend was full. This is how it is expected to be for the next few months. No complaints. Just have to learn to be focused, efficient and budget R&R to avoid the burn out.

  • On Friday, my childhood friend came with homemade pickles and besan ladoo. We decided to have dinner together impromptu. She is the best when it comes to rolling rotis, so that had to be part of the menu. Much fun was had cooking together and gorging on simple home cooked dinner. Beats take outs and eat outs any day. Could not have asked for a better start to the weekend!
  • Most of Saturday and Sunday was spent out of the house. Can’t tell you what a relief it was to be home in the evenings, even if it was filled with chores. When I am doing chores, I am either listening to podcasts or catching up on phone with family or friends, both of which are the sounds of relaxation for me. 
  • Hari and I watched 60 minutes today. There was a segment that interviewed the student activists from the Florida school. Oh God, my heart weighed a ton and my eyes were streaming with tears as I watched them speak. I have no words but deep deep admiration for their convictions. Like one of the moms said, I wish we were not behind, but in front of them. These kids shouldn’t have to do it. We should not be thrusting this burden on their shoulders. But really what choice do they have after their lives have been so profound affected and changed forever?
  • Last week Hari participated in the Walk Out against gun violence. He is aware, has been following the updates, and has been forming strong opinions. 

Time to hit the sack even though there are gazillion thoughts waiting to be written down. Adios amigos. Have a good week.

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The weekend

Preparation for Sunday school, Sunday school, Vishnu Sahasranamam (which I barely kept up with), a glimpse of the Raghavendra padukas, temple visit, gorging on delicious food not cooked by me, caching up with friends, Whatsapp discussion, weekend chores, and Oscars, pretty much sums up the weekend. 

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February reflections and epiphanies

  • When I was in high school, I knew I was a procrastinator. “Thanks to my habit of procrastinating, it has taken me this long to reply….” or something to that effect is how I recall writing letters to my friends. And then life happened and I neither wrote letters nor used the word procrastination as much.  It hit me as I typed the recycling bin post last month that an absence of the said word in my life does not imply the absence of the said trait in my personality. Meaning, I continue to be a procrastinator that I once was. A very useful insight because procrastination with inertia make it difficult to pick up momentum once I lose it.
  • Case in point, I wanted to write the Feb. reflection post on the last day of Feb. I forgot, then I procrastinated, and the post is still swirling in my head. If I don’t write it now, I know it will just remain locked in my head. So here I am tackling procrastination head on.
  • How did Feb. go? Let’s just say, I need a slap on my wrist, a kick on my butt, and a knock on my head. Da returned from India with goodies and I would have been fine had I indulged in just the said goodies. But the break lingered and had a ripple effect. I realized that the time when you know you are slipping is the time you need to double your efforts and bring the habit back on track. Once you don’t act in that phase it becomes too overwhelming with all the self admonition. Also, I realized when I slow down, it does not result in improvement in quality of my life  or an increase in leisure time. It just leads to plain inefficiency. On a positive note, I read quite a bit and that made me so very happy. I don’t feel like a sham when I say I enjoy reading because I know what it is when reading becomes compulsive and takes your life over. Of course, there is the practical difficulty of how to balance it with chores, work and other things, which is why reading has taken a back seat in the first place. As they say, you can have it all, just not at the same time.   I did a solo performance at the temple for Shivarathri. I have performed the dance several times in a group so it was good to compare and make corrections. I learnt that I have to constantly talk myself into relaxing because I get stiff unintentionally due to the focus. Also, it was another exercise in accepting that I may not be excellent in absolute terms but there is immense pleasure in becoming better.
  • What tone do I want to set for March? There is so much important but not urgent stuff to do that I am not doing under the guise of slowing down. Also, one of the important things about building habits is doing the same thing at the same time in the same order. It may not work for everyone but it is something that resonates with me and has worked for me in the past. I need to nail that routine for me. Part of it also would be to come up with tactical actions that would connect to the year of “Us”.

Alright folks, have a good weekend. Thanks for lending me your ear, and I happy to return the favor if you want to let me know how your Feb. went.

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